i decided, this feeling Just have to stop.all these would come to an end soon...
just thinking, what wrong did i do that caused all these? is it God's punishment？im tired, really. apart from God, who else can we really rely on ? apart from God, who can we really pour our hearts out to? apart from God, my parents...who can i trust, who really really cares?

, maybe its better like this? that we arent tt close like before? because im kinda tired of keeping that friendship..what i want to say to you , what i really want to share, i cant. like those shows, sometimes..when we missed certain chances, it just doesnt matter anymore in the future? cos some words, somethings.. even if i tell you, it wont make much difference either. its too late, like what they always say. i can understand now.. sometimes, like a simple sorry or even thank you to a friend, when you say it after you missed the chance in the past.. you'll realised that even if you say it, its not important already... its just words.

today one of the question in the survey that we have to do for evangelism, it got me thinking... " what qualities do you look for in a friend? " surprisingly, many guys said " loyalty" . hmm..then i thought that was quite true. actually thats what that matters the most, apart from all, like " funny, lame, good to talk to" all these..

hahaha...hilda u muz be thinking im crazy already. saying all these....but these are just what i really feewl like letting out. the above friendship one is for "scary" , rmb? lol. better use nickname.. haha.